Monday, April 1, 2013

my testimony

My testimony I was planning to go to MOPS on Tuesday December 11th, 2012 but Cheyanne started getting a cold so I figured I would have to miss. Rayme told me he would keep her because I had to be at mops. I didn't understand it because he never wanted to keep her that early. He just said he felt like he had to do this for me. The next morning I woke up late and again decided that I was just going to stay home, but I had already made my breakfast potatoes to take so I got ready and went. I felt like I was being pulled and pushed to go even after all these things happened to prevent me from going. We had our Christmas meeting food, and a Church service. I would usually ignore those for the most part and won't lie that's a big part of why I kept trying to get out of going to MOPS that morning because I knew it would be a service. The pastor came in and started talking about his kids and told us a few stories about how he and his wife related their life to the bible. He then passed out a piece of paper with the verses Mark 4:35-41 35 That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, “Let us go over to the other side.” 36 Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat. There were also other boats with him. 37 A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. 38 Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?” 39 He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm. 40 He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” 41 They were terrified and asked each other, “Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!” I was paying more attention to him at this time and even caught myself in tears a few times before he was done talking to us. He went on to tell us that Jesus was in our boats with us, and we had to just believe in him. When the service was over I had really started thinking about my life and how I had always blamed God for the bad rather then thanking him for the good and it hit me no wonder so many bad things happen to me. Before I got the chance to talk to anyone about what I was feeling my phone rang. I was awaiting a call from the Dr. I answered the call and was told that I once again had cervical cancer. I dropped to my knees and prayed right then. I didn't pray for all my bad to go away but instead prayed for god to help me through it all. Prayed that he would give me the strength to change my life and start living the right way. I had a few talks with the ladies at mops who will never know how much they mean to me for that. They prayed with and for me. I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders as soon as I gave in and asked God for help. I had been slowly changing things. This year at mops has been the biggest blessing for me we have been hearing the testimonies from the ladies I have known for years. Hearing about how the lord has helped them with so many things. We had guests who told us that nothing went the right way until they handed it all over to God. I have to say that I am so thankful for the ladies of mops because who knows where I would be today. Looking back I can see where Gods plans worked. He was pushing me to go to MOPS that day. Made every moment before that seem like it was my stepping stones to him. I am still working on being the best I can be, but I know I will succeed at this because I have a great leader to look up to and a amazing book to follow. Since that day I have been saved, found the perfect church for me and my family, planned on being baptized but ended up sick and have changed everything about the way I live. If I can get one person to want to see the difference in lives I lived just one person who starts a walk with Jesus because they saw my story my life will be complete. **************** My facebook post for that day :) today has been a REAL eye opener. Today marks my new life and new walk with jesus. I have been back sliding for way to long and have completely fell off but not anymore. It will be hard for me because of my past but i am determined to have my children grow up knowing who Jesus is. I want to thank the ladies who spoke with me today at mops you may not realize it but you are a true blessing ing my life. And the next time you see me i will be a changed woman. And i know that even with all this bad in my life you ladies will always have my back. I also want to thank my sister for always understanding that i needed to start my walk on MY terms even tho youve been working on me for a few years. I love you allie I just want to add if you feel negative about this post just go right ahead and delete me now to save the trouble later on. Have a great day everyone:)

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