Monday, April 1, 2013

my testimony

My testimony I was planning to go to MOPS on Tuesday December 11th, 2012 but Cheyanne started getting a cold so I figured I would have to miss. Rayme told me he would keep her because I had to be at mops. I didn't understand it because he never wanted to keep her that early. He just said he felt like he had to do this for me. The next morning I woke up late and again decided that I was just going to stay home, but I had already made my breakfast potatoes to take so I got ready and went. I felt like I was being pulled and pushed to go even after all these things happened to prevent me from going. We had our Christmas meeting food, and a Church service. I would usually ignore those for the most part and won't lie that's a big part of why I kept trying to get out of going to MOPS that morning because I knew it would be a service. The pastor came in and started talking about his kids and told us a few stories about how he and his wife related their life to the bible. He then passed out a piece of paper with the verses Mark 4:35-41 35 That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, “Let us go over to the other side.” 36 Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat. There were also other boats with him. 37 A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. 38 Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?” 39 He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm. 40 He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” 41 They were terrified and asked each other, “Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!” I was paying more attention to him at this time and even caught myself in tears a few times before he was done talking to us. He went on to tell us that Jesus was in our boats with us, and we had to just believe in him. When the service was over I had really started thinking about my life and how I had always blamed God for the bad rather then thanking him for the good and it hit me no wonder so many bad things happen to me. Before I got the chance to talk to anyone about what I was feeling my phone rang. I was awaiting a call from the Dr. I answered the call and was told that I once again had cervical cancer. I dropped to my knees and prayed right then. I didn't pray for all my bad to go away but instead prayed for god to help me through it all. Prayed that he would give me the strength to change my life and start living the right way. I had a few talks with the ladies at mops who will never know how much they mean to me for that. They prayed with and for me. I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders as soon as I gave in and asked God for help. I had been slowly changing things. This year at mops has been the biggest blessing for me we have been hearing the testimonies from the ladies I have known for years. Hearing about how the lord has helped them with so many things. We had guests who told us that nothing went the right way until they handed it all over to God. I have to say that I am so thankful for the ladies of mops because who knows where I would be today. Looking back I can see where Gods plans worked. He was pushing me to go to MOPS that day. Made every moment before that seem like it was my stepping stones to him. I am still working on being the best I can be, but I know I will succeed at this because I have a great leader to look up to and a amazing book to follow. Since that day I have been saved, found the perfect church for me and my family, planned on being baptized but ended up sick and have changed everything about the way I live. If I can get one person to want to see the difference in lives I lived just one person who starts a walk with Jesus because they saw my story my life will be complete. **************** My facebook post for that day :) today has been a REAL eye opener. Today marks my new life and new walk with jesus. I have been back sliding for way to long and have completely fell off but not anymore. It will be hard for me because of my past but i am determined to have my children grow up knowing who Jesus is. I want to thank the ladies who spoke with me today at mops you may not realize it but you are a true blessing ing my life. And the next time you see me i will be a changed woman. And i know that even with all this bad in my life you ladies will always have my back. I also want to thank my sister for always understanding that i needed to start my walk on MY terms even tho youve been working on me for a few years. I love you allie I just want to add if you feel negative about this post just go right ahead and delete me now to save the trouble later on. Have a great day everyone:)

Monday, June 6, 2011

its the simple things

As I sit here in complete silence I find myself thinking about life and how its the simplest things that make me happy. I don't need a big house or fancy car. I'm perfectly happy in our apartment with our small car. I'm happy that we live in a small town where I can just get up and walk into town with the girls. We have a park right across the st from us and that's nice. My town has this AMAZING beach that's free and open for us to go sit in the sun cookout and let the kids play. Even if they are not right next to me the whole time. As long as your kid knows to stay away from the road your golden.
I have friends that aren't so easy to please. And I feel bad for them. I couldn't imagine living my life grumpy because I don't have nice things. I have a wonderful life with my man and kids and wouldn't want it any other way.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

bitter sweet feeling of life

My 3 and a half year old Danika Faith graduated from her first year of preschool today. It was such a cute little ceremony they sang a few songs walked up a little ramp to get their diploma and told everyone what they wanted to be when they grow up.
Of coarse my girl is so shy she tried to escape as soon as she saw all the people. Then when it was time yo sing she sat in her chair with her ARM covering her face. She refused to get out of her chair to get her diploma and flashed everyone her chest trying to hide Di she didn't have to tell us what she wanted to be. She told her teacher before they came in she wanted to be a pretty butterfly. Other then Danika only one other kid wanted to be some thing silly. He wanted to be tony stark as in ironman. Everyone else wanted to be either a teacher or mom and dad. One said fireman and a few girls wanted to be singers but not many ideas.
I am so proud of the little lady she has become. At the same time I'm super sad she's growing up so fast. I get the same bitter sweet feeling when I think about cheyanne in 14 short days she will no longer be a baby. She will be my one year old. Where the heck did the last year go? She wants to walk so bad just won't let go and do it. She walked 3 whole blocks tonight hold mine and raymes hand. She would've kept going if we hadn't got to a busy road. She got so mad when we picked her up. We took a family walk to the park I got lots of pictures like always. We played for a good hour before it started getting chilly.


I need to sleep I have a migraine. I shall continue tomorrow.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

testing

My phone is kinda iffy and doesn't always work. I wanted to now my first blog a tester. If this works and you see it let me know please and thank you
Jessica Lynn